POETRY
"...BUT YOU PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND ME,
AND I AM AFRAID YOU NEVER WILL."
"THE RELIEF OF GIVING INTO DESTRUCTION."
"NEVER HAVE I DEALT WITH ANYTHING
AS DIFFICULT AS MY OWN SOUL."
"IF JESUS DIED FOR ALL OUR SINS
HE LEFT ONE BEHIND THE BODY I'M IN
SAME HANDS THAT MADE THE MOON AND THE STARS
GOT CARPAL TUNNEL AND FORGOT SOME PARTS
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I BELIEVE
BUT IT'S EASIER TO THINK
HE MADE A MISTAKE WITH ME."
"THE SKY OPENS UP, THE TIME IS NEAR,
ONE FINAL BREATH AND THEN I'LL DISAPPEAR."
"THE BARREL AT THE BACK OF MY THROAT, A SLIGHT GAG
COLD,
MY LIP SHIVERS FROM THE TOUCH, ONE SIGH OF RELIEF,
THIS IS ALL THATS LEFT."
"I PUT THE BARREL INTO MY MOUTH, AND LOOK INTO THE SKY.
ONE LAST BREATH, A FINAL SIGH.
IT WAS A WASTED LIFE."
"I DO NOT SPEAK.
I DO NOT KNEEL.
I DO NOT BURN WITH THEM.
THEIR GODS PASS THROUGH ME.
THEIR SONGS ROT IN MY MOUTH.
I AM NOTHING HERE.
AND NOTHING WAITS FOR ME."
"YOUR PERCEPTION OF ME IS A REFLECTION OF YOU."
"YOUR WORST SIN IS THAT
YOU HAVE DESTROYED
AND BETRAYED YOURSELF
FOR NOTHING."
"IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?"
"I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE
TO NOT HAVE DEEP EMOTIONS.
EVEN WHEN I FEEL NOTHING,
I FEEL IT COMPLETELY."
"IT WAS A LONG TIME AGO.
IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE.
AND YET I CANNOT LET IT GO.
I CANNOT LET IT GO."
"I AVOID MY GAZE IN THE MIRROR;
I HAVE NO INTEREST IN LEARNING WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO MEET MY EYES."
"I WANT HER TO SPLIT ME OPEN, TO DIG HER
FINGERS IN AND PRY OPEN MY RIBS, LICK MY HEART
AND MY BLOOD AND MY BONES. PICK OPEN MY
BONES AND SUCK OUT THE MARROW. I WANT TO BE
DEVOURED BY HER. AND SHE WANTS TO DEVOUR ME
JUST AS BADLY. IT'S IN EVERY LOOK, EVERY
MOVEMENT, EVERY SMILE."
"THERE ARE HEARTS THAT WON'T EVER HATE YOU,
NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU HURT THEM."
"EAT OFF ME BABY
SKIN TO THE BONE
BODY ON BODY
UNTIL I'M ALL GONE BUT
I'M WITH YOU INSIDE."
"FORGIVE ME FATHER, FOR I HAVE SINNED.
AND AS I KNEEL HERE NOW; HANDS RED WITH BLOOD,
I KNOW DEEP DOWN, THAT I'll DO IT AGAIN."
"HE AND I ARE CLOSER THAN FRIENDS.
WE ARE ENEMIES LINKED TOGETHER.
THE SAME SIN BINDS US."
